Summer weather is here, which means that Summer Day Treatment cannot be far behind. Summer Day Treatment means that we will spend more time indoors with the kids because the high temperatures and high humidity levels outside make being there uncomfortable. It also usually means that my aides may change as we get settled. What all this really means is that I am sick of my job, mostly because my schedule allows little free time. It's killing me. Now that I have decided to quit after Summer Day Treatment is over, I am scared. I fear slipping deeper into depression, like I am doing today. I fear loneliness. I feel unsettled. I will miss parts of my work-the people I see every day, the families I work with, the pretty parts of my drive, having good supervisors, having support staff, the teamwork approach to getting the job done. I don't think that I will ever work for pay again. I'm so tired of being always on the go, of having nearly every minute scheduled. I could sleep for days, maybe years.